久しぶりだな。。。

†     o'er two years since i've written on this thing...and looked at it, it seems. i need some way to keep track of 'ish at the moment, so might as well excavate this thing and kick it back into use.

ah well. latest endevour: figuring out what to do with my free time. this should be interesting. i should grab another job and work two again (had to quit the second when i went back to school), but i sure as hell do NOT want a second retail job with quotas at this time. too much stress, i may start grant-standing in the middle of the store just to make--and surpass--my numbers all at once, smile at my manager(s) and clock out five hours early much to the chagrin of my fellow employees.

          --hey, i'd get the job done, why *shouldn't* i be allowed to leave earlier than everyone else? i'll need to go home and reboot so i can kick ass again tomorrow  *feral grin*

so, yeah, wish me luck?  :3

Questions in Life to Ponder

--Number One--

....why in the nine bloody hells have i been on xanga more or less since i got home from work after 5pm EST? i mean, shit, i only left the comp for dindin and the donny  o.ô

--Number Two--

how does motivation work when you're more likely to update a site you haven't really touched in...oh, i don't know, over a  year, instead of dealing with present matters, such as...mmnn, cleaning out your room?

--Number Three--

ok, this one's more for the guys who've managed to dodge this bullet (or survived getting lit up, whichever applies). what on earth do  you get your wife for her birthday when it's in less than a week and you have Christmas and possibly the last birthday to make up for and you're a bit strapped for cash?

(it's a complex relationship that wouldnt' be recognized outside of cerain places inside the continental United States should it actually exist...aka: she's my best girl friend and i'm half expecting a 'Chuck to the forehead next we meet)

Currently Reading The Stinky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales By Jon Scieszka see related

*blehblehbleh bleeeeeeeeh*

†       ^^ please sing title of post in the tune of the Beethoven piece which i forget the name of, much to the chagrin of all my music teachers, and that will be today's theme--misguided potential  ^^

i've managed to write--blog comments (mega props to ldjcub3's "5 Ancient Chinese Secrets" blog that i need to figure out how to recommend....i know a few who would die laughing *grins @ wife* )

i've managed to work--at work. instead of straightening out a corner of my room, i've been writing--blog comments (mega props to ldjcub's "5 Ancient Chinese Secrets" blog that i need to figure out how to recommend...i know a few who would die laughing *grins @ wife* )

けど。。。「リ　デ　ン　プ　ショ  ン」　がある！！！

(but...there is RE DE M P TIO N!!!)

*cues Gackt song in the backgrond*

for today.....I *WILL* CREATE!!!!!!!

--a better page for my xanga blog for the sake of a change of pace. you know, instead of straightening out a corner of my room, because i'll be writing--blog commetns (mega props to--

*laughs* i'll stop there before anyone throws anything at me. there's a few real literary works (lol) with that pattern; i remember one is a remake of the story "Jack and the Beanstalk" in the book The Stinky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales (gods, i loved that book in primary school). let's just say Scheherizad herself would have cried if she had to listen to that one   

結婚しましょう。。。か？

†      to those who can read japanese: yes, i know you're not upposed to put a question mark after the question kana since that defeats the entire purpose of the syllable, but i did it for extra emphasis.

tonight's question, as the title translates to: Let's Get Married.....?

(AH, AHAHAHAHA perfect irony, my favorite example of a mis-tuned gaydar texts me right after writing that XD )

Aside from not having any gender preference whatsoever these days, i'm really not sure what the point of tying the proverbial noose is. It was somethign that came up in my mind a few years ago when someone mentioned their aunt(?) has been living with her significant other for quite some time, and they have no plans to marry since neither sees the point in it. I'm afraid i do not, either. Especially if kiddies are nowhere in the picture. All i can see a benefit to is legal issues, and even then depending on the state you're in you two better be damn loyal to each othr or someone's going to get screwed worse than a Philips head.

Maybe i should post this one to the datingish blog, i'm very curious to hear people's takes on it. my thoughts are thus: if you deeply care about someone enough to spend your life with them, do you really need a(n often times lavish) ceremony and a piece of paper to declare this? this goes for gay or straight marriages. and if you need the law to make sure you're both faithful to each other, then perhaps both parties need to sit down and discuss a few things.

As for myself.....i dont' even know where on earth i want to be yet (literally), and i don't want to drag someone along for the uncertain ride.coming and going as i choose is an extreme convenience; knowing that someone is waiting for you when they could be getting on with their own lives sounds to me like one of the worst things you can do to someone you care about. i do NOT like keeping people in "relationship limbo" when there's a chance they can meet someone better AND closer to home. sounds wierd as hell, but that's my take.

--and anyone wondering, yes, i've been in love, yes i know what it is (i'm not an emotional twit (just a callous one), so i know the difference. and in any event, i don't think i've ever felt lust except maybe once and even that may be a lapse of memory on my part since i couldn't tell you when that was. tha'ts another rant for another time.), and i obviously know what it's like to deal when someone can't keep up their end of the bargain or some kind of distance problem arrises. all the last scenerios suck, and is a major reason i look sideways at anything that ties two people together in a way thats' not easy to get out of should the need arise, whether the second person's a douchebag or your job requires you to take more trips than a clumbsy runner, if you know what i mean.

Why did the thought come up again? something i said to my mom, told her i'm single and selfish. i come home and sleep, i've no problem with telling people that. hell, if they had two jobs, they probably wouldn't do much else, either. and, no, i don't watch tv

*gasp!*

but i do goof around on my phone and computer from time to time. otherwise, i wouldn't be back into xanga. (lolz, j/k. sortta.). it was something she mentioned about someone lying about exactly how much they do in a day. i personally see no problem with saying you go home and sleep after work--especially if you're a friggin' guy!, which i am physically not--and it's much better than making stuff up or embellishing on the actual. it does a crapton more for your integrity, if nothing else.

about this song--no idea why the title's not showing up (Kuusou Ryodan) even though the album is. it's a bit of a "time travel" for the band and it's influences, from what i read on the notes someone posted. it was one of my favorites by Do As Infinity before i read that, but now i love it even more  ^_^

†       wooooow, going through all the old mail i've never opened is like Christmas, but not quite. Lots to open....most of it going in the trash.

Cleaning your room out is one of those things no one likes to do unless they're in the mood for that deep, down clean feeling you can only get from finally throwing shit you no longer or never needed away....or did i get that from a Neutragina commercial or something? Meh, who knows at this point.

It's amazing how much crap one can find that was horded over the years either on accident or you can't let go of it. Right now i'm going through the things i *know* i will have no use for, and also making myself start on a few things that have more than material value. these are the hardest to deal with, but i will have to eventually. Books....huh. I haven't even found all of my manga, but what i did find is a decent stack, some not even read yet. Think i'll sell the ones i've finished with. i'll get a list together....right now i know i have volumes 1-2(3?) of the Cain Saga up for grabs (it's the series before Godchild), and i have about half of Kaori Yuki's other series Angel Sanctuary, but i'm not finished reading all of those yet. Her work's pretty fcuk'ed up, but for some reason i'm hooked. *grins* lemme know if you're interested. I may or may not have already gotten rid of the first 10 of Fushigi Yuugi; if that's in Mass, then i'm not keeping that, either, but i won't know until i go back and check through th other crap i had in storage while i was stuck in va  -_-&  <---*annoyed w/self for allowing so much shittake to rack up*